slacking

I've been remiss in my workout. Anemia kind of shut me down, mind, body & soul.
I had my monthly weigh in and I'm down 20 pounds. I'm sure the fact that I'm not on
any steroids helps the weight loss. Cancer can layer you in shame. Shame. Shame.
I'm trying not to be afraid anymore and just push myself. This week I think I pushed
too hard. I missed the whole week to sleep in and hit the snooze.
I haven't been hungry at all. I can't stomach the look of food. I'm been forcefeeding
myself which sucks because food is wonderful, food is the best thing in the world.
Works been kicking my ass too. 4 am and I'm looking at the clock right now and it's
10:00 pm and all I've done is the dishes, cleaned up the kitchen, played rock band and
totally kicked ass on Metallica I had alot of fun.

Tomorrow I'm going to get in atleast 20 minutes of cardio and 20 eliptical. I have a
really good mix for the iPod so I'm getting everything ready so I can run out the door
I hope for no more snow, but we all know that's not going to happen.
Atleast I'll always have a job ;)