mattress workout

Today is Saturday, well, maybe it's Sunday now.
I spent most of the day in bed because I didn't have to wake up at the
ungodly 4a.m. to go to work.
I got up around 8 and made a beef stew for the crock pot.
I cleaned the kitchen, swept, vaccumed the floor and washed it.
I finished the 2 loads of laundry. Changed the sheets and picked up the
living room. I still have alot of work to do but Idecided the bed looked too
good and lounged around until about 5.
I ate the beef stew with 2 pieces of bread...mmmm... carbs... it's been so long!
I cheated alot today, I think I had 3 sodas, I was just too lazy to get up and
get the water out of the trunk of the car :)
Tomorrow is ironing my work clothes day and vaccuming the living room day.
Other than that it might become another lounge around day, who knows :)
I'll have to be up at 4am on Monday so I'm living it up right now.

skipping a day

I didn't work out on Wednesday. I figured this first week of I would do
one day on and one day off just to not get too overwhelmed.
Thursday I did 50 minutes of cardio pulse rate 125.
I increased the speed on the machine by 2 and elevator to 7%.
My calorie intake for the day was 900.
I drank alot of water! I feel like a fish :)
By the time I got home after my hour long drive home I was pooped.
I think I went to bed by 7 and was up again at 4 to start the day over.
I'm taking Friday as another off day and actually I think I'll take a 1/2
day at work so I won't have to sit in 3 hour traffic to get home.

Cardio

This is the start of my workout/healthy lifestyle change.
Today was my first day at the gym.
I did 40 minutes of cardio and got my pulse rate up to 125.
I had 1000 calories and about 400 of those were 2 sodas I drank.
Nighttime is harder for me than day time, at work I'm so busy I
can forget to eat but supper is big here wheither it be at home
or at my parents house. My new goal is to stop all snacking/eating
after 7p.m. on week nights and after 9p.m. on weekends.

My Goal

Since the first of the year my whole life has changed in an instant. 2007 was a hard year. I went through trials, tragedy, and triumph. I've been in remission since August 10th and celebrated the death of my best friend and older cousin in a motorcycle accident. Two peas in a pod became one and I miss him everyday. Over the last 7 years I've let my body go. I'm had surgeries and been on steroids, chemo, experimental cocktails, immunos. I've had 5 spinals in the last year alone. The last thing I was thinking about was my body in anyway other than it held a disease I had to fight tooth and nail. There's this myth that people who have cancer become rail thin and waste away. It does happen in the later stages, different medicines, different cocktails and genetics. I've had bone marrow aspirated and can't count the amount of PET, CT, & MRI I've had in 2007 there too many to count. I've gained 100 pounds of fluid, water, and fat. I've t the outside reflect the pain and devastation my heart has had since first diagnosis.

2008 is a new year for me. I finally have hope that I'm fighting the good fight. I have good pain management and a great team of nurses and doctors. Already my job of 7 years moved my office from Tewksbury to Quincy which is a good 80 so miles from my home. You'd think I'd be crazy about the commute through Boston but I'm not regretting it yet.

This is my new year. The real me. I'm taking what I've learned about perseverance against disease and I'm going to use it to make the outside look the way I feel inside. I just have to remember to not give up on myself so I can turn this Buddha into what it should be.

Wish me luck.